Day 8: Like Quicksand

God: I was listening to the radio today and I heard a woman call in. She had four kids and a husband who is non-responsive to her. She is a devoted Christian who truly loves God, but I've never heard a more lonely person in my life. She seemed so trapped that it made me think that marriage is not all it is cracked up to be. I'm not saying that marriage is a bad thing. It's probably one of the three greatest days in a persons' life. I guess a lot of people don't quite understand the difference between dating and marriage. While love for the person may not change between either scenario, the legal and social commitment is so much more complicated in marriage. They say that some of the loneliest people are in relationships. I never believed it until today. I guess it can be like quicksand. It pulls you down and the more you struggle, the faster you sink. It just boggles me how a Christian woman can feel so tired and alone. Four kids? How does that happen when you have four kids? To me, there is no time for lonely.

And so I guess this time, right now, is for me. I truly believe that God has something for me to do before my family life begins. I'm still not sure what that is, but I hope it's writing or teaching. That would truly be sublime.

Writing: Decided not to pause on the writing. I'll fit it in as best as I can.

Magic: Taking the week to slowly practice an hour a day.

Fish: Fed fish and watched them eat. I think the tank has cycled. The fish haven't died. I definitely need to ask the fish guy at the store about the state of my tank. Maybe another water testing.