29: Let me alone, God

Chapter Seven. Boy, what a downer. Job compares the life of a Believer to that of a slave 'longing for the evening.' He is very poetic in his analogies. And I can't disagree with him. Life as a Believer has been, at least for me, a struggle. It's been misery. Granted, there have been some fun times, but mostly it's been about sacrifice, guilt, and fear. This is why I'm trying to search for a true relationship with God, a relationship not built on said things.

Job, in a way, stands up to God in this scene. He says that as a man, he has only one short life to live. Unlike God, his life is limited on this earth and he does not want it to be wasted in misery. I love this because I felt the same way in Oregon. God is good and great. I submit to those facts. Yet, I hate it that God can 'waste' my time and my life, even for only a moment because I know how precious life is. My breathe is limited to 70 years or so and for God to spend even a day of it, in my mind, on punishment bothers me. Doesn't it bother anyone else? For God, time does not exist. But humans, for life, time is the great equalizer. We all expire and I just hate it when my time is used as a lesson-teaching afterschool special.

The greatest statement in this section is "Let me alone." Job talks to God and I love it. There are times when I feel like I want God to leave me alone. I know that this becomes problematic in theological groundings, but it would be nice to take the credit for things that happen in life and also to take the blame. The later is more important to me. I can give all the praise to God when things are good. That's fine. But when things are bad, I'd rather place the blame on myself than wonder if the blame goes to God. And another thing, Can we blame God for bad things that happen? Is God blameless? Is God responsible for nothing bad, only good?

I have no idea, but for me, if God takes the glory, He must, take the blame. I don't care who you are, but you can't just take the glory and ignore the blame. It's a part of the job. There needs to be someone or something that takes the responsibility.