15: Pass the Test of Faith

I find it interesting that today's devotion is about faith. It claims that faith and common sense do not work together, but against each other. Hmm? So in order to have strong faith I must give up my intellect and common sense that I spent so much time building, e.g., college. There goes my $40K down the drain.

Not only that, but my faith must be tested by hard times. Great! That means that until the day I die, my faith will be tested. No free days as a Christian, huh? Nice.

While I believe that there should be some assessment of each Christian's faith with God, I must admit that to face this trial throughout our lives is a bit much. I thought that once you were a Christian, you were in the 'club' and that was it. No more jumping through loops or doing any trust exercises. I feel like I'm in fourth grade and we are doing those fall and catch activities to build trust. I love Bug Juice, the show. Don't get me wrong. It's just that I think having our faith tested throughout our entire life is a bit much. God should know that He's got me. I'm not going anywhere.

And what's the deal with, again, another so-called simple request that Jesus poses. He says that all we have to do is believe and we will see the glory of God. Sounds simple enough to me. I believe, yet I don't see the glory of God necessarily working around me in my life. Yes, I see nature and I'm grateful for what I have, but where are all the blessings? The true blessings? I'm not talking about the fact that things could be worse. To me, that's a weak argument. That defeats the whole purpose of God. Of course God could make things worse for you. If you believe in Job, then that's the perfect example. But to me that is living in fear. And that's not a relationship. If we are always afraid of God making things worse in our life, I don't want to be in that relationship. I'll feel overpowered and abused.

I just feel a little uneasy knowing that my entire life with be a huge test of faith. It's exhausting.