Day 5

God: Last night's dream seems relevant to what I read for devotions this morning. In my dream, I was playing golf, quite well I might add, and all of a sudden my dad knocks me in the face a few times to the point that I can hardly breathe or move. After a few moments, I get up and walk around to where I see various extended family, each wondering what happened. I can't talk because my face is smashed in, so I nod and pass them by. My dad has never done anything like that, but it does lead into what I read this morning in Wild at Heart. The chapter focused on what fathers do to hurt their sons. While the discussion of father-son relationships was interesting, I believe it was rather vague and ambiguous. The author stated that the wound left by all fathers causes the son to either be violent or passive, or a mixture of both. I have to ask how those results can be so universal.

Writing: Finished Chapter 15, but am having serious doubts about finishing the novel before school starts. I'd have to write two chapters a day to make it. Accepted the scholarship from the Cross Family and plan to give them a nice thank you note with a balloon animal.

Fish: The fish made it through another night. Feeding will be a challenge because one of the fish is nearly blind and needs the food to be right in front of him. Debating whether or not to buy a plant so that the blind fish can eat at its discretion.

School: Nervous about the first day of teaching. Not because of the students, but because of the material. I want control of my classroom and the content that I teach. I don't feel that with this semester. We'll see how things go.